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MY CONCEPTUAL PROGRAMMING

I already mentally picked out what I would wear to church before today. This morning however, I changed my mind by picking out a somewhat older lace discarding quite a few in its favour. I had not adorned it for some time. It had a rope that I could easily tire with the wrapper without fretting about it coming lose.

I was in no mood for any stressful dressing, I wanted to be free. Adorning it, I mirrored almost 20 years ago when I had zero choice but wore what was available during festivity. We had turbulence, the down turn on our finances for four years. God in his munificence strode with us, paying our rents, feeding and paying bills without us begging nor borrowing from nobody. Fashion was farthest on my mind, I exhibited zero stirring to its appeal.

I had only four good laces, I alternately wore on Christmas, New Year and parties. I perceptually chose the clothes for Easter and Christmas from January. (Laughing)  However, I had respectable and suitable English clothes I wore to church, thank God for my supportive late elder sister who sent me clothes, shoes and bags. She made sure I lacked nothing, my wonderful sister; her intrinsic Chromosomal generosity towards me was incredible. In fact, those four native clothes were also the graciousness of my elder sister.

That period was a tremendous humbling journey for me. Not being able to afford what I needed I rocked my sister’s “pass me down”. Those who knew me as an unmarried woman knew I was a fashion buff. I kowtowed fashion. I loved to dress so well that I made incredible impressions everywhere I went. People opened their windows to watch out for me even in Warri, the oil company I served, I knew(I was told) most staff watched out for me every morning.

Therefore, this morning I was filled with gratitude that I could wear an old lace out of choice and not out of necessity and still feel so good about it. It has been a huge and incredible journey from the events that has shaped my life to discover that clothes do not define you. You define the clothes you wear through your attitude. You can be radiant in whatever you wear. God took me on that wilderness journey to cure me of my conceptual programming of equating fashion with accomplishment. Today I do not notice how expensive a cloth is but I only see how good it looks.

HAPPY EASTER folks!

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